Wednesday, January 4, 2006

There's Something About Paper

What is it about writing on paper? I mean, seriously. I find myself much more inspired when I am holding a pen and sitting over a piece of paper or notebook. It's always been that way for me. There's just something about the idea of what a blank piece of paper can become.

However, that same inspiration that a blank piece of paper brings can also bring about a sense of apprehension. What if I fill this piece of paper and what I write is not acceptable? What if I destroy this item that brought me such inspiration by filling it with musings that are not worthy of the paper they are printed on? What then? I can never return that pristine piece of paper to its original condition. That unique source of inspiration is gone forever, I ruined it.

Maybe that explains why I have to restrain myself from buying new notebooks when I have several at home that I haven't put a single mark into yet. The pull of inspiration is equaled by the fear of mediocre musings. Thus is my plight.

Am I alone in this, or have you ever experienced the same thing?